I'm finally doing a diet and not cheating or being discouraged or just wanting to eat because I should, I'm eating healthy foods I'm walking loads again and I feel a million times better then I did.
I am hoping to have lost 4/5 stones by Christmas, that equates to 2/3lbs per week which is very achievable.
That will take me to 12/13 stones were I want to be!!
GO ME!!
xXx
Tuesday 24 May 2011
Friday 20 May 2011
Thinking time
After posting earlier today I've had time to think about what events are happening and why it would be good for me and the family is I lost weight.
When I first thought about losing weight I wanted to be 10 stones, now I think about it logically and I will never ever weigh 10 stones, so 12/13 stones is were I want to be, that's 4/5 stones a smaller target!!
There are two things happening in the next 4 to 6 months, in 4 months it is Ryan first day at school and instead of being a fat mummy I want to be a slim(ish) mummy I want him to be as proud of me as I am off him, now I know he will be proud whatever I weigh cos he's only 4yrs old but in 10yrs time will he still be proud NO!!!!!!
Secondly, I am going on my first ever in my whole life weekend away abroad with the girls, I've never had a holiday away with the girls, they are all very pretty slim ladies who are fully of self confidence, and i'm not and I want to be able to go away feeling as happy about myself as they do.
So guys and gals, tomorrow I will start slimming world, now I've read in some magazine that the first 12 days are the hardest, and if the only way to get through them is to post on here everyday then that is what I will do, I will do this, I have to I want proud children and I want to love myself!!! xx
When I first thought about losing weight I wanted to be 10 stones, now I think about it logically and I will never ever weigh 10 stones, so 12/13 stones is were I want to be, that's 4/5 stones a smaller target!!
There are two things happening in the next 4 to 6 months, in 4 months it is Ryan first day at school and instead of being a fat mummy I want to be a slim(ish) mummy I want him to be as proud of me as I am off him, now I know he will be proud whatever I weigh cos he's only 4yrs old but in 10yrs time will he still be proud NO!!!!!!
Secondly, I am going on my first ever in my whole life weekend away abroad with the girls, I've never had a holiday away with the girls, they are all very pretty slim ladies who are fully of self confidence, and i'm not and I want to be able to go away feeling as happy about myself as they do.
So guys and gals, tomorrow I will start slimming world, now I've read in some magazine that the first 12 days are the hardest, and if the only way to get through them is to post on here everyday then that is what I will do, I will do this, I have to I want proud children and I want to love myself!!! xx
The title of this blog should be my none starter of a weight loss journey
I can't believe we've nearly finished the 5th month of the year and I'm still "starting" my healthy diet to lose weight and become fit and healthy!!!!
I worked it out that if I'd have lost 2lbs every week for the weeks I was suppose to be starting it my weight today would be less then 14 stones, how happy would I be with this achievement, VERY happy, however, I'm still the same starting weight I was on the first of January, although I've drop a stone and then put it back on again, its a blooming nightmare.
So, here we are again, I'm not even sure why anyone would want to read a blog of someone failing every single day, and that is what I do, I wake up asking myself how, today, am I going to lose weight and on the night think, again another FAIL!
I'm stuck in a place I don't want to be, I don't want to fail, I want to lose weight, I think the problem is that the amount of weight loss I need is so large that I can't see the end of the journey, so if there is no end what is the point in beginning it, then I look at the kids running around and think I would be a better Mum, Wife and housewife to this family even if it was just a few stones.
Whilst typing this I realised that this is the point, if I look at a small goal maybe then I will lose the weight, oh but I've done that already and still I don't seem to succeed.
I'll be honest, I'm very depressed about the whole situation, which makes me eat and then I'm unhappy cos I've eaten so again I eat and eat and eat till I feel like I'm going to explode and then I get really angry and the process starts all over again, I go to bed every night and have done for a long time now with stomachache, whats that all about.
Well I'm going to now say that tomorrow, the 21st May 2011 is going to be the final time that I say this is day one, I've joined an online slimming club that has brilliant results I know this cos some very good friends are slim using this diet, I'm going to do this, not for the kids or Phil or even the people reading this failure of a blog, but for little (or big haha) me, I want to be able to pick items up off the floor, which I can't, I want to be able to run around the garden, I want to look great in a pair of jeans and I want to feel confident when new families come to visit instead of feeling "how can I look after your children when I can't look after myself"
Wish me luck, I will need it and I'm going to wish for willpower as this is what I need
xx
I worked it out that if I'd have lost 2lbs every week for the weeks I was suppose to be starting it my weight today would be less then 14 stones, how happy would I be with this achievement, VERY happy, however, I'm still the same starting weight I was on the first of January, although I've drop a stone and then put it back on again, its a blooming nightmare.
So, here we are again, I'm not even sure why anyone would want to read a blog of someone failing every single day, and that is what I do, I wake up asking myself how, today, am I going to lose weight and on the night think, again another FAIL!
I'm stuck in a place I don't want to be, I don't want to fail, I want to lose weight, I think the problem is that the amount of weight loss I need is so large that I can't see the end of the journey, so if there is no end what is the point in beginning it, then I look at the kids running around and think I would be a better Mum, Wife and housewife to this family even if it was just a few stones.
Whilst typing this I realised that this is the point, if I look at a small goal maybe then I will lose the weight, oh but I've done that already and still I don't seem to succeed.
I'll be honest, I'm very depressed about the whole situation, which makes me eat and then I'm unhappy cos I've eaten so again I eat and eat and eat till I feel like I'm going to explode and then I get really angry and the process starts all over again, I go to bed every night and have done for a long time now with stomachache, whats that all about.
Well I'm going to now say that tomorrow, the 21st May 2011 is going to be the final time that I say this is day one, I've joined an online slimming club that has brilliant results I know this cos some very good friends are slim using this diet, I'm going to do this, not for the kids or Phil or even the people reading this failure of a blog, but for little (or big haha) me, I want to be able to pick items up off the floor, which I can't, I want to be able to run around the garden, I want to look great in a pair of jeans and I want to feel confident when new families come to visit instead of feeling "how can I look after your children when I can't look after myself"
Wish me luck, I will need it and I'm going to wish for willpower as this is what I need
xx
Friday 29 April 2011
Beginning day three
Well I'm very proud of myself, yesterday was really hard and we went out for the day, the only place to eat at was a burger van (which isn't great whatever plan your on) I knew eating would be a problem so I had a big meal before I went out, and although the smell was lush I didnt eat anything I shouldn't
The kids even had chocolate and I didn't have any, bloody hell thats great!!!!
Got weighted today and already 5lbs lost which is just brilliant, I feel rubbish but thats because I'm addicated to carbs and sugar so just working through my bodys adjustment stage, get through today and tomorrow will be easier.
Going out with the family again today, but I'm taking food with me and eating before I go out, all will be good......fingers crossed for today though as day three is the worst one ever.
The kids even had chocolate and I didn't have any, bloody hell thats great!!!!
Got weighted today and already 5lbs lost which is just brilliant, I feel rubbish but thats because I'm addicated to carbs and sugar so just working through my bodys adjustment stage, get through today and tomorrow will be easier.
Going out with the family again today, but I'm taking food with me and eating before I go out, all will be good......fingers crossed for today though as day three is the worst one ever.
Wednesday 27 April 2011
Moving forward
I haven't started the p90x system yet, there are a number of fitness things you need to be able to achieve before you start to stop injure etc., and I wasn't able to do some of it so I'm training on them first.....going really well so hopefully should be able to start the actually system on the 1st May, was a bit disappointed at first not to be able just to do it, but understand that this is for the rest of my life and if I get injured straight away that isn't going to help.
I have also decided to come off carbs, this is for health reasons as well as aiding with weight loss. The health reason is a family history of people having problems with wheat and carbs, for the past four weeks I have had stomach pains several hours after eating bread/pasta and with the family history I think the best thing for me is to try going without it for awhile.
Today, is the first day without and I know the next 3 to 4 days are going to be hard as my body will want me to eat the cabs, but I know (as I've done low carb before) once I'm over these 3 days I will fell a hundred times better.
I know some people don't like nor recomend low carb but with all the stomach pains I'm having I think it is the only way forward for me, as I just don't feel well most of the time, which is a bit distracting especially with 3 kids!
I normal start my plans a few days before we are due to go somewhere and it then goes wrong straightaway, I have been very mindful of this and know that we don't have any plans for the next few weeks plus the extra four days off with Phillip will help as he keeps me going.
If anything, we may have a bbq coming up, which eating low carb is perfect for hahaha
IMPORTANT PART: I now weigh 17 stones 4lbs yes my health eating, diet plan since Janurary has only resulted in me putting weight on.....great!! but that has passed can't change it, just move forward.
I have decided that small goals instead of a BIG goal of 7 stones maybe the best way, so below are the list of small goals I am hoping to achieve. I will post on these dates and confirm my results.
From Today, 27th April 2011 until 1st May 2011 to get through the next four days carb free......the first four days are my hardest and it is normally day 3/4 that I crash and burn haha so the small goal is to get the 1st May still doing carb free.
Second Goal
1st May till the 7th May - training everyday on the P90X system and to be down in weight to 16 stones 10lbs - this is a lot of weight to lose in 9 days but with the low carb I training I will lose a lot of water therefore should have a big weight loss
Third Goal
7th May till 1st June - to finish the first full month of the P90X system and to weigh 15 Stones 7lbs
Fourth Goal
3rd June (my 37th birthday) I would love to be 15 Stones 7lbs - which I know is still heavy but would just feel soooooo good lol
Fifth Goal
1st July - to finish the second full month of the P90X system, to be feeling fit health and great, to be seeing and feeling the results and to 14 stones 7lbs
Sixth Goal
1st August - to have finished the P90X system and feel good!!! to weigh 13 stones 7lbs
Seventh Goal
1st September - to be finishing to 2nd first full month of the P90X system, to get the desired results I'm going to have to do the P90X system at least twice but at least this time it should be easier (kinda) in a good way and to weigh 12 stones 7lbs
Eighth Goal
1st October - finishing the 2nd second full month of the P90X system, burning the calories baby!! haha and weighing 11 stones 7lbs
Ninth Goal
1st November - finally finishing the 2nd third full month of the P90X system, I'm looking ripped and weighing 10 stones 7lbs - TARGET
Tenth Goal
Maintaining and keeping this hot body.............
I have also decided to come off carbs, this is for health reasons as well as aiding with weight loss. The health reason is a family history of people having problems with wheat and carbs, for the past four weeks I have had stomach pains several hours after eating bread/pasta and with the family history I think the best thing for me is to try going without it for awhile.
Today, is the first day without and I know the next 3 to 4 days are going to be hard as my body will want me to eat the cabs, but I know (as I've done low carb before) once I'm over these 3 days I will fell a hundred times better.
I know some people don't like nor recomend low carb but with all the stomach pains I'm having I think it is the only way forward for me, as I just don't feel well most of the time, which is a bit distracting especially with 3 kids!
I normal start my plans a few days before we are due to go somewhere and it then goes wrong straightaway, I have been very mindful of this and know that we don't have any plans for the next few weeks plus the extra four days off with Phillip will help as he keeps me going.
If anything, we may have a bbq coming up, which eating low carb is perfect for hahaha
IMPORTANT PART: I now weigh 17 stones 4lbs yes my health eating, diet plan since Janurary has only resulted in me putting weight on.....great!! but that has passed can't change it, just move forward.
I have decided that small goals instead of a BIG goal of 7 stones maybe the best way, so below are the list of small goals I am hoping to achieve. I will post on these dates and confirm my results.
From Today, 27th April 2011 until 1st May 2011 to get through the next four days carb free......the first four days are my hardest and it is normally day 3/4 that I crash and burn haha so the small goal is to get the 1st May still doing carb free.
Second Goal
1st May till the 7th May - training everyday on the P90X system and to be down in weight to 16 stones 10lbs - this is a lot of weight to lose in 9 days but with the low carb I training I will lose a lot of water therefore should have a big weight loss
Third Goal
7th May till 1st June - to finish the first full month of the P90X system and to weigh 15 Stones 7lbs
Fourth Goal
3rd June (my 37th birthday) I would love to be 15 Stones 7lbs - which I know is still heavy but would just feel soooooo good lol
Fifth Goal
1st July - to finish the second full month of the P90X system, to be feeling fit health and great, to be seeing and feeling the results and to 14 stones 7lbs
Sixth Goal
1st August - to have finished the P90X system and feel good!!! to weigh 13 stones 7lbs
Seventh Goal
1st September - to be finishing to 2nd first full month of the P90X system, to get the desired results I'm going to have to do the P90X system at least twice but at least this time it should be easier (kinda) in a good way and to weigh 12 stones 7lbs
Eighth Goal
1st October - finishing the 2nd second full month of the P90X system, burning the calories baby!! haha and weighing 11 stones 7lbs
Ninth Goal
1st November - finally finishing the 2nd third full month of the P90X system, I'm looking ripped and weighing 10 stones 7lbs - TARGET
Tenth Goal
Maintaining and keeping this hot body.............
Sunday 17 April 2011
P90X System
Starts tomorrow, looking forward to killing myself lol
Have deleted previous post, I'm going to get weighed and measured later then post them, from there I will post how I feel, how much I hurt, how much I'm enjoying it or not as the case will be occasionally, and then 4 weekly weigh ins and measurements.....I will be weighing myself once a week!
Summer is just around the corner, time to make the change.
90 day challenge, 90 days isn't a long time in the scheme of things, I know I'm not going to be a size 10 in 90 days (I wish) but I know once I actually start this challenge there will be no going back and I am truely looking forward to becoming fit and healthly and I know however hard it maybe the hard work will pay off.
It is the time to stop talking/writing about it and just DO IT!!
Peter - your support has been wonderful, I may call on somemore when the journey gets hard lol xx
Have deleted previous post, I'm going to get weighed and measured later then post them, from there I will post how I feel, how much I hurt, how much I'm enjoying it or not as the case will be occasionally, and then 4 weekly weigh ins and measurements.....I will be weighing myself once a week!
Summer is just around the corner, time to make the change.
90 day challenge, 90 days isn't a long time in the scheme of things, I know I'm not going to be a size 10 in 90 days (I wish) but I know once I actually start this challenge there will be no going back and I am truely looking forward to becoming fit and healthly and I know however hard it maybe the hard work will pay off.
It is the time to stop talking/writing about it and just DO IT!!
Peter - your support has been wonderful, I may call on somemore when the journey gets hard lol xx
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