I'm finally doing a diet and not cheating or being discouraged or just wanting to eat because I should, I'm eating healthy foods I'm walking loads again and I feel a million times better then I did.
I am hoping to have lost 4/5 stones by Christmas, that equates to 2/3lbs per week which is very achievable.
That will take me to 12/13 stones were I want to be!!
GO ME!!
xXx
Tuesday 24 May 2011
Friday 20 May 2011
Thinking time
After posting earlier today I've had time to think about what events are happening and why it would be good for me and the family is I lost weight.
When I first thought about losing weight I wanted to be 10 stones, now I think about it logically and I will never ever weigh 10 stones, so 12/13 stones is were I want to be, that's 4/5 stones a smaller target!!
There are two things happening in the next 4 to 6 months, in 4 months it is Ryan first day at school and instead of being a fat mummy I want to be a slim(ish) mummy I want him to be as proud of me as I am off him, now I know he will be proud whatever I weigh cos he's only 4yrs old but in 10yrs time will he still be proud NO!!!!!!
Secondly, I am going on my first ever in my whole life weekend away abroad with the girls, I've never had a holiday away with the girls, they are all very pretty slim ladies who are fully of self confidence, and i'm not and I want to be able to go away feeling as happy about myself as they do.
So guys and gals, tomorrow I will start slimming world, now I've read in some magazine that the first 12 days are the hardest, and if the only way to get through them is to post on here everyday then that is what I will do, I will do this, I have to I want proud children and I want to love myself!!! xx
When I first thought about losing weight I wanted to be 10 stones, now I think about it logically and I will never ever weigh 10 stones, so 12/13 stones is were I want to be, that's 4/5 stones a smaller target!!
There are two things happening in the next 4 to 6 months, in 4 months it is Ryan first day at school and instead of being a fat mummy I want to be a slim(ish) mummy I want him to be as proud of me as I am off him, now I know he will be proud whatever I weigh cos he's only 4yrs old but in 10yrs time will he still be proud NO!!!!!!
Secondly, I am going on my first ever in my whole life weekend away abroad with the girls, I've never had a holiday away with the girls, they are all very pretty slim ladies who are fully of self confidence, and i'm not and I want to be able to go away feeling as happy about myself as they do.
So guys and gals, tomorrow I will start slimming world, now I've read in some magazine that the first 12 days are the hardest, and if the only way to get through them is to post on here everyday then that is what I will do, I will do this, I have to I want proud children and I want to love myself!!! xx
The title of this blog should be my none starter of a weight loss journey
I can't believe we've nearly finished the 5th month of the year and I'm still "starting" my healthy diet to lose weight and become fit and healthy!!!!
I worked it out that if I'd have lost 2lbs every week for the weeks I was suppose to be starting it my weight today would be less then 14 stones, how happy would I be with this achievement, VERY happy, however, I'm still the same starting weight I was on the first of January, although I've drop a stone and then put it back on again, its a blooming nightmare.
So, here we are again, I'm not even sure why anyone would want to read a blog of someone failing every single day, and that is what I do, I wake up asking myself how, today, am I going to lose weight and on the night think, again another FAIL!
I'm stuck in a place I don't want to be, I don't want to fail, I want to lose weight, I think the problem is that the amount of weight loss I need is so large that I can't see the end of the journey, so if there is no end what is the point in beginning it, then I look at the kids running around and think I would be a better Mum, Wife and housewife to this family even if it was just a few stones.
Whilst typing this I realised that this is the point, if I look at a small goal maybe then I will lose the weight, oh but I've done that already and still I don't seem to succeed.
I'll be honest, I'm very depressed about the whole situation, which makes me eat and then I'm unhappy cos I've eaten so again I eat and eat and eat till I feel like I'm going to explode and then I get really angry and the process starts all over again, I go to bed every night and have done for a long time now with stomachache, whats that all about.
Well I'm going to now say that tomorrow, the 21st May 2011 is going to be the final time that I say this is day one, I've joined an online slimming club that has brilliant results I know this cos some very good friends are slim using this diet, I'm going to do this, not for the kids or Phil or even the people reading this failure of a blog, but for little (or big haha) me, I want to be able to pick items up off the floor, which I can't, I want to be able to run around the garden, I want to look great in a pair of jeans and I want to feel confident when new families come to visit instead of feeling "how can I look after your children when I can't look after myself"
Wish me luck, I will need it and I'm going to wish for willpower as this is what I need
xx
I worked it out that if I'd have lost 2lbs every week for the weeks I was suppose to be starting it my weight today would be less then 14 stones, how happy would I be with this achievement, VERY happy, however, I'm still the same starting weight I was on the first of January, although I've drop a stone and then put it back on again, its a blooming nightmare.
So, here we are again, I'm not even sure why anyone would want to read a blog of someone failing every single day, and that is what I do, I wake up asking myself how, today, am I going to lose weight and on the night think, again another FAIL!
I'm stuck in a place I don't want to be, I don't want to fail, I want to lose weight, I think the problem is that the amount of weight loss I need is so large that I can't see the end of the journey, so if there is no end what is the point in beginning it, then I look at the kids running around and think I would be a better Mum, Wife and housewife to this family even if it was just a few stones.
Whilst typing this I realised that this is the point, if I look at a small goal maybe then I will lose the weight, oh but I've done that already and still I don't seem to succeed.
I'll be honest, I'm very depressed about the whole situation, which makes me eat and then I'm unhappy cos I've eaten so again I eat and eat and eat till I feel like I'm going to explode and then I get really angry and the process starts all over again, I go to bed every night and have done for a long time now with stomachache, whats that all about.
Well I'm going to now say that tomorrow, the 21st May 2011 is going to be the final time that I say this is day one, I've joined an online slimming club that has brilliant results I know this cos some very good friends are slim using this diet, I'm going to do this, not for the kids or Phil or even the people reading this failure of a blog, but for little (or big haha) me, I want to be able to pick items up off the floor, which I can't, I want to be able to run around the garden, I want to look great in a pair of jeans and I want to feel confident when new families come to visit instead of feeling "how can I look after your children when I can't look after myself"
Wish me luck, I will need it and I'm going to wish for willpower as this is what I need
xx
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